Pam Simmons – Director / Facilitator
I was in an adulterous affair with another man. It was not that I was not content within my marriage, but I allowed Satan to put doubts and curiosity in my head. I was a virgin when I got married at of 18 years of age. I thought that I might have been missing something, that maybe the grass might be greener on the other side. Besides, I was aware of other people having “affairs” around me. It was all over TV. All of these things I allowed to cloud my judgement and I also allowed Satan to provide that opportunity. Well, the grass was not greener on the other side. In fact, it’s filled with thorns and thistles. I was a fool who all of a sudden found herself pregnant with another man’s child. It was at this point in my life,… that I seemed to keep making one bad mistake after another. My next mistake was to choose to have an abortion in an attempt to hide my sins. So I sacrificed and killed my unborn baby. It was then that God showed me all my sin and I had to deal with the consequences. I was so broken. It was in that brokenness that God forgave me and started my restoration process. It was at this point that I had accepted forgiveness from God but how do I forgive myself? I had so many feelings of regret, shame and guilt. I felt so overwhelmed. But we serve an awesome God, who is so faithful. He healed my marriage and healed me. He taught me through His word, what true love and forgiveness is. I no longer have any desire to wonder. I am now joyful and content and I stay in the word. For I know that if I’m in the word it will keep me from sin, and sin will keep me from the Lord. Be encouraged to stay in Gods word daily. Continue to commune with God and not allow Satan the opportunity to put anything in your path that you cannot combat with the word of God. Hebrews 4:12 says ”For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”
Pam Simmons