Starved

Kelly Vargas

We live in a world today obsessed with being thin.  Everywhere you look you are bombarded with ads on weight loss and super models glorifying their waif like bodies.

Growing up as a teen in Southern California my emotions were too painful to endure as my life was spinning out of control.  The only thing I could control was my food and my weight.  I started to starve to numb my feelings and I became obsessed with being thin.  Anorexia brought me comfort in my pain.  It provided a sense of security in my chaotic family.  It numbed all my feelings and gave me a false sense of control.  Anorexia made me feel like I was invincible.  It became my everything.

I found myself in the grips of its deadly control.  I starved myself down to deadly weight and at 16 I found myself in the hospital after suffering a heart attack.  Yet that wasn’t enough to stop me from starving.  Suddenly I found myself in a battle of choosing to live or to die.

 

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